The oddest thing has happened to me
I want to be alone
I'm tired of being someone I'm not
To please the people who can never really be pleased.
I'm tired of being the peace-maker
For those who'd rather fight.

I want to be alone
Walking up the road alone
Feeling free
Independent of thoughts that so and so might want to join
"So and so" makes me tired.

I want to be alone
On the beach
Speaking silently to the power of the waves
On the mountain
Seeing my smallness up against the backdrop of greatness
In the silence
Treading it for hours....

It's an odd thing to want to be alone
But then it's an odd thing for me to care so damn much!

She says I don't have to get along with everyone
She says her birthday stank too
She says,
She got a cake though

Sweet vanilla scented cigar smoke
Sifting in and around my mouth
Caught up and dispersing
Into a misted evening ocean breeze.
Larger than life pale orange moon
Peeking at us over the horizon
Before being swallowed in cloud

Now I am content
Now I am me
Calling to the crashing tide
Stretching out to sea like the water on the horizon.
Now comes the time
My hopes rise up in me for something much, much more,
My soul aches for connection
Earth to heaven and back
Been missing it lately

Breathe you in
Like my sweet cigar
You enter all of me
That's why I'm left to wonder...

(written just after my birthday Dec 2004)