Ringing in my ears
An unholy orchestra
Of out of tune
Wind instruments
Out of rhythm
Percussion

Trepidation
Leaking backstage
Lurking in the black curtains
Before dawn
And I leave
I leave it to them
Throwing hands into air
Screaming down empty streets
Creaking
Sleeping
Wounded streets
My faithful friend fear
Always behind
Always whispering
A ringing in my ear

It's only coffee
It's only my life
Lay down and die
Or fight to the death
Which is better?

Which is better?

Oh fantastic world
Thinking you've got the best of me
I'm out to get the best of you
Even if it is what brings me
To this insanity
Running
Singing
A song I just made up
Watching the children twirl
Watching the children die

I shake in my fear
Oh how I shake
Don't twirl in front of the world
Don't die in front of them either
Imposters
Who do I trust?

I speak in vulnerable tones
I'm shut down again
Is it possible to keep this heart soft?
Weeping
Fighting
Dying
Ringing in my ears

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