Rescue

Huge waves of self doubt,
Panic escapes my lips as a whisper.
I tread so gently
As though the world may swallow me up           
I've never been so AFRAID
Not sure of even who to trust
Certainly not myself...

Wrestling with you,
Or maybe the you I thought was you.
Different worlds
Different soil on my feet
I cannot make the two halves meet.
Scolding myself for being so flighty
"Get It Together!"
Am I losing my mind?
Am I losing myself?
I don't recognize you or me
It was supposed to be different.

But tell me now
Which way?
Because I am withering here
In indecision
Isolated in this confusion
Paralyzed by these fears

What am I holding onto so tightly,
That I cannot see beyond myself?
Am I a child?
That I must re-learn it all again?
Humbled.
Desperate
Perishing without vision...

I raise my white flag
In your presence
What else can I do?
I am without escape
Maybe you will rescue me
Again.